Tony An, who reached the top as a member of the ”first generation idol group” HOT and as a businessman, made more money than he could have ever imagined, but developed severe depression... He reveals his fierce battle with illness

Singer Tony An (HOT) has confessed about his experience with depression in the past. On the 13th, the YouTube channel "New CBS" released a video titled "Tony An (former)
- A video was posted with the title "Forget Ahn! The story of Christian Ahn Seungho, who is not HOT's Tony."
Debuted as a member of the SM Entertainment group "HOT" and after the group disbanded
Tony An was a successful businessman. He said, "I had low self-esteem throughout my time in the group," and added, "I actually lacked a lot of ability, but I was treated like a very good person.
I met the members and a good agency, and that's how it turned out, but I thought maybe I just didn't have any talent."
Tony An said that he was scared because of this and that he was independent.
I heard that the story of the artist who was born in T. I was filled with inferiority complex and obsession about what to do with my life, so I decided to show what I could do well and started my business.
"I felt that I was lacking something as a celebrity, so I decided to look for another job. I was good at talking and building relationships," he said, starting with the uniform and entertainment businesses.
He explained why he decided to take on the business. The business was a big hit, and Tony An said he thought it was "over." He said, "I was making more money than I could ever have imagined, and everything was so perfect.
I thought I had become successful as a singer, gone independent, and become successful as a businessman, but that's when my life started to fall apart.
The manager I had been working with since I was a child suddenly started treating me too politely after I started a business and became the CEO of a successful company. From that moment on, I was no longer able to talk about the difficulties I was facing. All of this
"I thought I had to carry that burden and overcome it myself. That's why people around me kept their distance," he said. In the end, Tony An said he put up a fence around himself and isolated himself, saying, "At one point,
"I started having very painful headaches," he said. "At the time, I was taking about eight Tylenol tablets a day, but the headaches didn't go away. I was suffering so much that one day,
"I was told that it didn't seem like a typical headache and recommended that I see a psychiatrist," he said, adding that he was subsequently diagnosed with eight conditions, including depression, bipolar disorder and social phobia, and was prescribed medication.
Tony An said that the medication helped relieve his headaches, but he felt lethargic. "I didn't want to do anything," he said. "When it got worse, I even thought about dying."
I imagined it while looking down at the balcony. What's even more interesting is that I'm a celebrity, so I thought, "I can't die in an ugly way." I'd be a victim, and I wouldn't even be alive.
"I was in a bad mood," he confessed about the painful period. In the end, he took alcohol and drugs together, and faced a disaster in which he was exhausted and lay in bed, and he felt the seriousness of the situation. Tony An said, "
I had no memory of it at all. On my way out of the room to the living room, there was a mirror, but there was no hair there. When I looked in the living room, there was hair scattered all over the place, which I didn't remember.
"There was a haircut near the elevator and I accidentally cut my ear. Luckily, there was no excessive bleeding," he said. Later, the manager told me that she had hit her head on the elevator mirror.
Tony An added that he read the book "Entrust" by missionary Lee Yong-gyu and felt motivated before joining the military.
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